Gone so long

Didn't mean to be gone so long.
Nothing has been going on... really.
I'm drama free right now. Just kinda relaxing and trying to not think about Melvin a whole lot. I think I"ve realized that even though he has all of these wonderful qualities that I've always wanted in a man, he is lacking the most essential one: desiring only me, wanting only me... LOVING ME. And I don't know where that leave us. I still think about him. I still love him... but I am trying to not 'hope' anymore. I'm kinda of tired of being the one to worry about this and try so hard to make time for 'us' and stuff.
And just when I realize all of this... he is suddenly very chatty today. So I was annoyed. Usually when he text msgs me I'm just happy... today I was annoyed. It's just like he has some radar to know when I am wanting to move on from him and so he contacts me. I dunno...

Time will tell.