Make out with me...

... and thats all he had to say and I was his. OMG. Kissing slut.
YES.. I gave in and finally went over to Melvins place tonight. I was fine when we were just texting the past couple months, but he called last night and I heard his voice. He just does it for me. He is the total package for me. Everything I wanted since I was a little girl. He is tall (6'5") dark (african american) and extremely handsome. He is college educated and has a good job where he gets dressed up in a suit everyday. He is smart and funny. He is sweet and romantic. He totally respects my 'above the waist only' rule.
Yes. I have an 'above the waist only' rule. I have been celibate since Jan 2006. I did have one close call with some random guy this past Jan, but in the end all we did was make-out a bit and I made him leave.
But with Melvin everything is different. He respects that I'm trying to be a good girl. So we made out. My neck is my favorite place to be kissed, and he will spend forever there... and I know he just does it cause I like it. I like him.
So we've had this thing (not sure what to call it?) between us for over 1 1/2 years now. Not sure where it is going. But I like him too much. Which is why I try so hard to stay away from him. I totally don't want a broken heart. I know I could fall madly in love with him, if only he'd ask me to. But as things are right now, I'm not totally convinced that is isn't a player. And I'm amazingly OK with that. I guess because I know that it is a possiblity so I've kept myself from getting too emotionally attatched.
Oh, but I could fall. Hard. Fast. Deep.
He's just amazing.
And I whispered into his ear tonight "sometimes you make my mind wonder..." he asked for an explanation... but I wasn't brave enough to spill it. Maybe next time. I think he invited me over for Tuesday night.