Wow

So, It's been a while since I've posted anything here. Eh, it's been a while since I really posted anything in my online diary too... I'm a slacker.

Been busy with work. My roommate fell behind in rent, due to being sick and in the hospital for a full week... that really messes things up when he only makes like $6 an hour anyway, and 1/2 that goes to child support. So he's been working OT too, but also his medicaid (free health insurance for poor ppl) expired and he didn't get it re-newed in time, so he has been using some of his paychecks to get his blood pressure and pain meds refilled. So as it stands, he is behind like $425 in rent. I've been working OT to help pay my bills. It just sucks. I need to get my ass in gear and finish my degree so I can double my income and move next year like I want to!!

I've been going through my closet today... making piles of clothing: ones I can wear, ones to give to Amber, ones to go to Goodwill, ones to sell on eBay, ones I can recycle by using in crafty projects... My room is a disaster area!! I'm waiting for my batteries to charge up so I can use my digital camera to take pics for eBay. I'll probably be on the computer for the rest of the day then.

At this very moment I am wearing a size 24 pants and size 22/24 top. This time last year I was wearing size 32 pants and 30/32 shirts. I"m very pleased. I've lost about 90-93 pounds - depending on what day of the week I weigh on.
I've been stalled at this weight for a while now though... ice cream goes down so well, and tastes so good. I have 1 pint left in the freezer, and once it is gone I am DONE! No more ice cream until my birthday which is May 12... so almost 2 months. Once I successfully beat my ice cream addiction I will work on the chocolate (mostly M&Ms) addiction. I know I can do it - I've already successfully banned Fast Food, Sodas, and recently given up meat to follow a vegetarian lifestyle. I really miss salads... I just can't eat them at all. I get about 2-3 bites in and I'm stuck. But I do have some organic broccoli in the fridge and a new bottle of Ranch dressing... Maybe i'll eat that tonight instead of the ice cream. Hahaa

Melvin - well, things with him haven't really changed. I can't help it though, I love him. I know in my heart that I'm not ready to give him up, I want to be with him. But I stand firm on my decision of celibacy - I will not sleep with him or any other man until there is mutual love. Lust is no longer enough. I've now been celibate for 26 months. Wow...